I need this word for myself today, and I share it because I know I am not alone.
My busy days of a growing ministry, providing for a family can be overwhelming if I am not rooted in the word of God, and seeking a relationship with Jesus. He qualifies the called and provides a way. I need to let go of the wheel and sit with Him and be clear minded enough to hear His call to that rest.
Because he cares for us.
I could live with my mind set on who I was, and the worries of falling back to a life like that. I could live in fear of future worries that have not come to pass. The payment for the labor of my mind will inevitably become death. Spiritual death starts in my mind as a thought. I give that negative thought power when I speak it as a truth. Living with constant anxiety for future or past events create the same atmosphere in my mind and body as if I were literally living in that past trauma or future hurt.
For the thing which I greatly feared is come upon me, and that which I was afraid of is come unto me.
My mind cannot tell if it is a real danger or hypothetical worry. My pulse goes up; chemical responses start flooding our brain and hormones take over. My body is in fight or flight mode. In that moment of worry, I am not sober of mind, I am clouded by my physiological response to fear. We can start living in that past or future worry while sitting alone in a safe home, at work, driving, or in church. In those moments it is best to pray for calm. Jesus can calm the winds of a raging storm; he can break through the storm in our mind when we seek Him.
20 A man’s stomach shall be satisfied from the fruit of his mouth;
From the produce of his lips he shall be filled.
21 Death and life are in the power of the tongue,
And those who love it will eat its fruit.
Negative words create a narrative in the minds of those around me, including the children we love and want the best for. I have now given birth to sin within my present life. This cycle of worry is infectious and depleting to all involved. I can share my concerns without being overtaken by the emotion that comes from worry.
I used to live in fear and medicate the emotion until drugs became my god. Jesus gave a better prescription; we are implored to cast our worry on Jesus so that we may be clear-minded in doing the will of God. I am no longer defined by who I was. I walk in the purpose of who Jesus says I am. That man who was consumed with fear is gone. I am a son of God. I speak of who I was to glorify what Jesus did. God broke the curse of death because I chose a new life in Jesus.
I was an addict for over twenty years, I died multiple times, I did spend time in jail, I was on methadone for seven years, I used people, I stole, I lied, I never graduated high school, my father left when home when I was two, I lived on my own since I was fifteen, I was told I was mentally ill most of my life. You see I can go on and on about the power of a curse. We can easily get lost in that fallen narrative.
The true power is in Jesus who overcame death and curse. The true narrative is that we are restored sons of God. Jesus fulfilled the promise of scripture. We now have the choice of life or death by following Him or living for ourselves. The choice of curse or blessing is before you. You can find the power to choose within your heart and through your words. I follow Jesus and choose life.
Father, I pray that we go into our day being aware of this choice of curse and blessing in every moment, and every interaction. Holy Spirit we invite you into our planning no matter how small the decisions. May we all look at the problems in our life without overwhelming anxiety that paralyzes us from taking steps to do what is right in Your sight. Let us go out in love and return home fully alive.
In Jesus name, we pray, Amen